I got a reply from Pastor Lee. I get to talk with him tomorrow. I think I internalize too much of this.
I only got one R.S.V.P. today. I was getting to enjoy opening 6-7 a day. It is almost like Christmas. The secret here is who will attend. It is a fun game.
Work is sucky as usual. I really can't wait until I am finished with class and pass the boards and can start something new. I am ready for something new.
I am also ready for sleep. ZZZZZzZZZZzzzzzzzzZZzZZzzzzzzzzzzzzZzzzzZZZZZZzzzzz....
I sent an e-mail to our Pastor. I am really having a hard time dealing with everything. I am hoping he can shed some light. Who else do you talk to about this kind of stuff? I will be curious on what he has to say.
I ordered the wedding favors tonight. I also got more R.S.V.P. cards. I like that people write little notes on them. It is fun to look for. I am looking forward to seeing my friends and family all together.
I win. I win. I win. The weather is really sucky today so I called work. Grace answered so I think I will stay home and watch Dr. Phil. Payback feels nice. I will just be a little late but that is fine by me. It took Brian 2hrs to get to where I need to go. The drive is normally 30min. Grace can deal with actually having to wait on the customers herself. LOL
Well, the poop has hit the fan. I am not sure how Brian deals with all of this. He seems fine and never talks about it. I know he is very angry and disappointed. It has been this way since the begining. He is uncomfortable because he doesn't know what to do next, if anything can be done. I know he has tried to make it better but we have hit a brick wall. I know that when blame is placed on a person it is only natural to say "I didn't do it" or "It's not my fault". In this case though, it is very true. We have done everything we can think of but we are only one side. I told Brian last night that I want to go see Pastor Lee. Maybe he can help us make sense of this. At this point, we dread the wedding day. Everything we have done up to this point has been "wrong". We still have to choose the menu for the rehersal dinner and the reception. We still have to invite people to the rehersal dinner and give gifts of thanks. We still have to pick the cake and make the seating charts and place cards. We dread all of it. While we look forward to being married we don't want to share the day if people can't come and be happy for us. This all just makes me physically ill. Who knows what we will do for Easter this year. We have already decided that it is probably best if we don't stay at his mothers house... at least until the wedding is over with. We don't need that kind of tension. I just hope this all smoothes over soon.
Hello all. Brian said it might be a good idea if I up-date before the Everclear kicks in. He fixed me a little drink tonight =)
Basically I am a strong promoter for eloping. If I had it all to do again I would be in Fiji.
I got three R.S.V.P's today. One from Jayne... one from her mommy and one from some people we don't know. We figure that there will be a lot of those because we hardly know any of the people invited. :)
Nothing else is really new. I am so excited about "The Aunt's Shower" (new name to help tell the showers apart) because it is the day after finals. The closer it gets the closer I am to being finished with school. I am so ready for school to be over with. I have another Midterm next week. Too bad we have yet to cover any material. Appraisial is the biggest pile of horse dung. There is nothing to do and all the teacher does it talk about himself and the property he is currently investing in. YAWN!!!!
Off to sleepy land... I need my rest so that I can get up early and exercise. This better be working or the Gazelle is going out the window.
This is a long one... As you all know I sent the invitations on the 14th. Until today, I have been very excited about this. Brian's sister, Lisa, called tonight to give me a little warning that Brian's mom got her invitation today. Apparently she was highly pissed about the way I had addressed the inner envelope. Lisa said that her mom had felt it was too formal. As I told Lisa, I am sorry if her mom was offended but I did everything by the book. Lisa was really sweet and said that she explained this but Sandy is still mad. Her inner envelope was addressed to Ms. Sandra (fill in last name here). The same went for my mom and sister... Ms. Robin (fill in last name here) etc. Lisa feels that Sandy will probably be calling us about this one because of how mad she sounded on the phone. I will tell her the same thing... page 222 of The Everything Wedding Book explained how to address the inner envelope. The invitations are supposed to more formal because of the time of the wedding. Evening weddings are formal... end of story.
I have completly had it. I try so hard not to say a bad word about her. My New Years resolution was to put the past behind me and forget the begining troubles and just enjoy our time together. Why can't she just be happy that her son is getting married. I am the one that had called her to straighten things out in the begining. I told her I just wanted to get along and work through any differences. I told her I was sure that there could be compromises. I do not understand where this deep hate she has for comes from. I was so excited to be engaged to the man of my dreams who had this wonderful loving family. Now I just dread talking to her. Things are not supposed to be this way. I don't think I can do anything to make any of this better and makes me ill. I have tried everything... talking, not talking, including her and not including her. I am just so frustrated. I give up.
Brian called most of the groomsmen tonight to see if they had been fitted yet. He called Russ (the iffy one) and asked him if he had been fitted and Russ said no. He told him that that was fine we just needed his measurements by the 1st of March. Russ says... " I am really busy right now... I will try" What the hell does he mean try! Just do it. It takes all of 5min. The tux place is less than a 5min drive from is friggin house! So then Brian jokes... " are you going to be free in May" Russ says "so far, yes... but I don't know". What the hell? Brian is going to tell Russ (the next time he talks to him) that if he is not sure he can make it for the wedding that it is just best he steps out of the way. We have plans we need to make based on who is in the wedding. We need to know those sort of things. Now we need to find a back-up. I have just the person it mind... I will let you all know who when and if i get a confirmation.
I am not sure why all of the words are so big. But anyway, here is my big complaint of the day: I am on my way to work and I almost can't make it out of the complex. I call my boss to inform her that the roads are really bad where I live. She says " honey, if you make it out, the road out here are fine.". Probably the biggest lie I have ever been told. I get to work... finally and barely. I am completely livid that she lied. Then a fellow co-worker calls because it is her day off and she wants to know how the roads are out by the mall. Grace says " are you working today? No? Well then I don't think you should be out driving around. It is too dangerous.". By this point I am seeing red. Then she has the nerve to say she feels sorry for this guy that works with us because he lives "so far away". I kindly ask where he lives... turns out i live even farther away than he does! I am going to find a way to stick it to her. I will call off if I have to and leave her all alone there. I did tell her that if the roads were ever that bad again that there was no way in hell i would even try driving to work.
Nice thing of the day: Brian's mom called and we had a pleasant conversation. I also talked to Deirdre and she said Mia can hold her own bottle now and if you crinkle your nose at her she will do it back. I am an Aunt... I love to have things to brag about.
Pain of the day: EVERYTHING! I got new exercise equipment. My entire body hurts in a way that lets you know you are completely out of shape.
Nighty Night
Well I am may as well be living in Cleveland. Our store meeting was canceled due to poor weather/driving conditions. We were then put under a level 2 snow emergency (meaning don't drive unless it is important) and are expecting 6 inches while we sleep. EVERYTHING is covered. Speaking of covers I am going to go hide under them.
I think I forgot to brag about myself on Thurs. I got a 91% on my Appraisal quiz! It was 25 questions and worth 100 points.